Hmm i could simply tell shes almost here, but then again shes almost here but somewhere deep down, the muscular thing that beats lub-dub tells shes not yet here but it knows and wants it to be her. Its those one of a kind feelings.I get strange ideas..I am thinking about infidelity..what if its all a drama played by the troupe to make me feel good for a while and then screw it all up as always in the end when I think its gonna get that ferfect ending i always wanted.
So why shes here??? Well she knows enough to know why she is.Shes is all I can lose at the present moment. I have never spent so much time with someone..given so much of my not so precious time to one person. Why am i giving it to her? Coz i wanna. Aes i wanna. Shes the farmer who plucked the weeds in the field. She is the one who put in new seeds and wet the fields, helping me to revive my long lost soul. She didnt put in much. She just had to be there and she did just that.It might outwardly appear that nothing has changed but I know the spring in my step.
So why aint here??? Well few qualities are lacking..I know am jumping the gun thinking too far ahead but i know its all sealed cause i dont wanna see myself ending up elsewhere. I am at the same moment taking it by the day. Assertiveness is slowly coming in..would like to see more of it.If the belief of belonging is there then why the tension of not asserting ones ideas.I am open to new ideas.I live by it. Intelligence is there but neva shown and hence the tons of prablems shes getting into. Love helping her out with the troubles what else am I there for. But at times you know its all silly and she can be more intelligent. Independent ideas are required to understand the strength of the person. Intelligence gives rise to independent ideas..neva go with the flow for the tide might take you far away. If she only can prove to be independent and powerful I would just junginu let it take all the time in the world for I know its D.Its written.She knows she can be it all.Yet she aint.
Anbe Sivam!
Om Shanthi Om!
P.S: “Masakalli” is the dove on Secgee Sonam’s head and it means free spirited.Free-Independent.Spirited-Thrilling,Attitude to learn without ego;Independent mover and shaker.Devinately has shaken me!Kudos to ARR bhai!Bring on Dilli 6 and the rest of 2009!!!
