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Life is the sum of all your choices.
~Albert Camus
And how bloody damn right Albert Camus was.None of us really know why we are inclined to do a particular thing at a particular moment of time.None of us know where we are gonna end up with all the shit that goes around us.None of us have the ability to make a decision and say for sure that the decision we make is devinately gonna turn out the way we imagined it to.Be rest assured people say, with hardwork and patience, success shall come and fall at your feet.But this post aint about a person who made the right choice..hell no its not abt a person who works tirelessly and waits patiently for success to knock on his doors.Its about a person who has that ego flaming from within.That want to terrify people around him thereby dissolving his anger.Its about such a person.Its about me at the present moment.
“Life is not a bed of roses.Concentrate my boy dont go astray and lose out on life.” Why do these words play continuously in my mind.Its like a thenju ponna tape recorder playing these same words in my head.Day in and day out, after the really not so successful board results, I have been bothered by just one thing, “Why in the world did this have to happen to me?” Hmm…the result was sealed as my mom says long time back when I ruined my life going for glory and fame egged on by my ego.Bloody hell I dont even know what I wanna do next now? I firmly believe that life is all about ending on a happy note.But then reality always bites doesnt it.If someone is happy by a decision doesnt mean someone else cant be unhappy does it?
August 14th, 2008 could be the greatest day of my life or also it could be a monumental disaster..why??..simple i have to make a decision on what path i should take for the rest of my life? But then as David Russel once said, “ The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. “
I am practically assured of an engineering seat in Venkateswara where i could do Mechanical Engineering for the next 4 years and then write a post again mumbling about what i wanna do next.But then for that seat money was paid thaengs to my all so irritating marks I dont wanna be branded as some loser who didn score and did engineering..joining the scores of students who do engineering through merit and management. Or then I could try and get a Dental seat in the counselling that falls on the above mentioned date.I always wanted to be a doc but then that didn materialise.If I do get a dental seat the first thing I would do is throw it on my Bio teachers face and tell him “Yo Fer, I turned out better than you thought I would.” He wont be losing anything but then for all that sarcasm he threw at me while in school I just wanna rip his face apart. Or then Why cant I pursue something in field of cinema or creative arts.Of course its gonna be tough to establish myself in that field would be the counter argument.Would I know what I am doing would be another.But then that goes the same with the other two courses as well.The point of proving oneself is not that easy it takes hard work and patience, would be my argument.Sounds awfully too familiar doesnt it.I always wanted to tell stories.I always wanted to do something creative and related to the arts, but then will I ever get a chance in this country?
Am i complaining too much? Well I do feel like a loser today and I am not entirely taking the blame for it.I have never used anyone nor have i ever fabricated facts.I speak plain.I speak for myself.I stand vindicated.I am selfish I am wrong.But I swear am right and I knew it all along.I am cleaning up for all the wrong doings considered so by the people around me.I wanted to open out more.I wanted to scream and bring in some chaos..but then the personification of evil The Joker himself seemed to be talking to me through his image asking me “Why so serious?”
“If theres anything at all in this world that counts, its experience.Good decisions come from experience.But experience comes from bad decisions.” – William Henry Gates III {A.K.A} Bill Gates.
Anbe Sivam!
Om Shanthi Om!
